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Silent Screams

Created on 2004-11-09 03:39:52 (#5085724), last updated 2009-07-05

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About The Wretched Cherub:

The Basics:

I am a 28 year old. I'm more often than not, disappointed in myself. I'm depressed more often than I think is healthy. I am pretty sure I'm bipolar. I'm dissatisfied and finding contentment is my goal. Physically speaking I'm probably between 5'4 - 5'7, but I don't really know for sure because I haven't measured myself in awhile. I usually weigh between 120-130 lbs and my weight usually goes up and down on me, but it would help to lay off the ice-cream. I have brownish hazel eyes that sometimes look black and sometimes have a greenish gold look about them depending on the light. I usually have reddish dark blondish hair that at the moment has a big white streak in it. Miss EJ said reminds her of the X-men character Rogue.

My personality?

I am quiet and reserved and hard to get to know. I'm reclusive and for the most part I'm alright with that. I am also very quirky and I have manic spurts and quite a few people are inclined to believe I'm an oddball. I am sort of eccentric, but I am also practical when it comes to possessing common sense and using it. I would like to think I'm a "good" person, but it's really hard to say. What really makes a good person? I am also quite self-conflicted and I can be philosophical. I like nonsense that is meant to amuse but I don't like nonsense at times when people should take something serious.

Background

I'm from a small town and I'm pretty cool with this fact other than I wish there were more opportunities in my area and I wish things weren't so shitty for alot of the people who live here. I love the "naturalness" of the area in which I live. I love the trees and the mountains and the eldritch feel of it all, of living in a place that has an outside world charm about it, but is sadly being destroyed by greed and out of necessity that shouldn't be necessary. I grew up having a rocky home life. Let's just say here it was chaotic, but it's contributed to who I am, how guarded and restricted I am.

FYI:

I value human rights and I do not like prejudices or discriminations against people for merely being how they were born or who they are. It's ignorant and it shows how little that people think for themselves and follow their hearts rather then just do the easy thing by jumping on some bandwagon that tells you must hate or like someone to be liked and fit in with a particular circle of people. It's weak.

I am an animal nut. I love them and I usually love them all, but I do not wish to possess many at one time because caring for animals correctly is a task. Not only do I love them, but I feel more connected to the ones I know then I do with most people and I feel all animals should be treated with kindness and respect.

I'm not naturally patient. I will however, give patience a try and I am usually quite successful in my efforts or so I'm told. However, I dislike talking on telephones to an automated voice at any time. Absolutely hate it. Customer service has went out the door. Please give me a person to assist me so that we can get to the point and please give me a person who actually attempts to help rather than someone who just tries to keep you on line long enough so they get their time in.

I love the internet because of the information you can obtain and the doors it opens up. I like computers, and think they are extremely useful, but I do not like that everything, down to the simplest things in this world relies so much on artificial intelligence. Technology should simplify things, but it shouldn't be a substitute to learning. It's nice to see someone with whom to communicate with sometimes or to hear a human voice that is real, warm, and sincere.

I am usually nice and polite to just about everyone, but I can be frank, if not at times vile and sarcastic and bitter. People who meet the other side of me usually do something to incite it as I am usually laid back, but I can be passionate at times about certain things.

I immensely enjoy creating things whether it be roleplaying, drawing, writing, arranging things, or cooking. I'm probably not a master of any, but I do enjoy them when I am in the mood for them and enjoyment of a thing is what really matters. Don't enjoy something then there is no point in doing it.

Creation is merely an extension of ourselves. We put so much of ourselves into whatever we create that how can it be anything other than a part of ourselves? When people became too observant, too deliberate, and too detached from their creation, it becomes less artful and then what does it reflect? There lies the difference between art and craft; when a song is written intentionally to ensnare a generation rather than written to hold an unmistaken truth. Craft is nice and fun, I can enjoy other people's craft, but it's not art. The line between art and craft in our society is blurred terribly that I think most people don't realize the difference.

I really like the look of effeminate and androgynous men. I find them very beautiful. I love a man who is confidant enough with his masculinity to be beautiful.

There is nothing more shattering in this world to the self than having your heart broken.

One of the most frightening things I can imagine is the loss of self. Maladies of the mind that stomp down personality and memory are horrible enemies I don't want to face.

Growth is essential and important to well being, but don't grow so out of touch with the simple things that made you unique; what made you beautiful to someone in your youth.

I am sure I made many typos in typing this and I am trying to resist the urge to go back and edit myself.

Edited to add:

The majority of this journal is friends locked. I am not a frequent poster, but I do try to keep up and read whoever I have friended even though I will not comment each and every time I read something because sometimes I feel like others have already beat me to the punch and there is no need to be redundant. However sometimes on rare occasion I will give a megaload of a reply. I will add journals I think are interesting or someone who I think I might like, but if I drop someone from my friends list it usually means I've given it a go and I just don't feel like we clicked on any level and I am not one of those people who feel they have to collect friends. Actually I'm more of a loner, but I don't think the term implies I can't "try" to acquire friends, just that I usually don't.

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